I'm sorry to hear that but I do know what your going through. My grandfather died about two years ago when I was 12. He had a bad disease kind of like Lou Gherigs disease for a long time and it kept getting worse. For about a half a year before that he coudn't even talk to us. Then my mom went down to visit him with my uncle and aunt and he... died. It was still unexpected even though he was so sick and it hit us all hard. But now two years later I still miss him but it's not half as bad as it used to be. Just hang on and rough it out. It is sad and hard but life goes on for you and the rest of your family. I'm sure you will miss him but like me it will get better as time goes on. ;)
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"Watching prey squirm gives me the feeling of ultimate power"-Jodo Kast